However, after many discussions with my colleagues I’m really concerned about loosing all my bust when I loose weight. :/

I’ve set a date and its ages away… We actually decided on the date about a month or so ago but I’ve been thinking about it quite a lot.

I have like just over two years to get physically ready for this day.

Well no, not the day, the photographs that everyone will have hanging around for the rest of our lives.

I also weighed myself the other weekend and it really really hit me that I’ve been neglecting my body. I read a quote that said “stop treating your body like someone is going to give you a new one when it goes wrong. This body is for keeps” I’m not sure why but it really struck something in me. I’ve never been a skinny adult but I’d like to be. I’m 24 and I really really dislike that my hips and my knees are already sounding like they aren’t in it for the long haul. Not cool.

I also read this week that being overweight and having a high waist to hip ratio is a linking factor to people who develop dementia…. WHUT!

I know these things are a long way off for now but I have to look after myself now of I wont make it to those times. I want to look good in my wedding dress. I want to be healthy enough to be able to get pregnant and have the child be healthy. When the kids are here I want to be able to run about the park with them.

I’ve written previously about my lungs and the breathing issues I was having/am having. I cant help but feel that nearly every aspect of my health would be improved by weight loss.

All of this lends me back to the idea that I need to regiment my life. Maybe just till I get my shit together. I don’t particularly feel that ANY aspect of my life is under control and the only person that can change that is me.

This week just gone by I secured a pay rise and promotion in my job and I’m thrilled about it. Maybe I can use the momentum of that to kick my butt into action and pull the rest of my life into line.

I think I need a timetable. I’m considering making a time table and forcing myself into it. Almost military style. I am also considering being selfish. I give everything I have to my relationship right now and I know that he is worth it but at the end of the day I cant be the best I can be for him if I dont look after myself.

ACTION ACTION ACTION!!!!